I Was A Teenage Pirate Zombie (sebethis) wrote,
I Was A Teenage Pirate Zombie
sebethis

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Disconnected

Maybe it's the weather. Maybe it's the solstice. Maybe it's just me, but I feel very disconnected today. I didn't really notice it until I was driving and I realized that everything just seemed slightly off. I was noticing details but not seeing the big picture. Everything seemed to be somewhat slower than normal. I am just detached. It was such a severe feeling that I wondered if I should be driving. I made it to the law school just fine. Let's hope that this feeling dissipates before I have to leave.

The scariest part is that it is affecting the way I interact with people today as well. I know what my responses should be and I say the right things to talk with people, but I just have no actual feeling on the inside. I wonder if this is how sociopaths feel all the time. Not exactly dead on the inside but just disassociated with everything and everyone else.

The one positive thing is that in some ways everything seems new even familiar items and pathways. You notice details that you've overlooked or somehow see things as an alien might. That's kind of interesting.
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